-UPDATE- Total days Furloughed: 516 Days!

          It took 516 days away from my home terminal of Glasgow, Montana to get myself back with the company that set all this in motion.  I went through the self recall process which required me to provide a UA, complete 719 GCOR questions and take a couple of familiarization trips along with a week in the Williston yard.  Aside from completing those tasks, I also participated in a two day return to service refresher class in Minot.

          So from the time that I decided that I was going to head over and through the time it took to get back in service, the traffic along the hi line has gone from wide open to barely holding.  There were open spots all over the division and now there are nearly none that my seniority will allow me to hold.  So much is going through my head about the future and where I see myself that I really don't have the words put together to explain how I really feel.  Though in my current state, I'll give it a shot.

          I miss my kids!  I see that I'm divorced, a thousand miles away from my boys and I really can't see my crystal ball and project anything in the future that says, this is right and this feels right.  I honestly feel like I am here simply because that's whats next in the process.  I first came out here with the thought process of taking this on because that's what was best for my family, that we'd move over to Montana in time and that things would just fall into place.  Well from that initial decision to where I am at today, so much has transpired professionally and personally.  So this is the crossing in which I am currently standing at.  At this junction, I don't really care to delve into the details of my life that I already haven't shared in previous posts.  You get it, a train wreck which I called my relationship.  All I know at this point is that I really need to find the direction in which this train ride is going to take me.  To try and be patient through it all and lean onto God for direction and not try and figure things out on my own that only he knows.  To give over it all!  To submit to His authority and let him lead me whole: in thought, in word, and in action!

UPDATE:  I started this post in the basement of a good friends house that was in my conductor class. I never finished it and am at a point where I am seeing some clarity in my thoughts in which I can put them into this blog that I have created.  Over a half a year has passed and I'm going to try and bring this thing up to speed and to current time.  This post will be short.  I'll add some pictures from the timeframe in which I am posting as well.  Here we go!